I hadn’t intended on anything to happen. To be honest I wasn’t looking for anything. I had just about given up on relationships; on this idealized version of what love was supposed to be. I had decided after my break-up in the summer that I was done with relationships. I did not like holding back a part of myself and feeling shy and embarrassed in social settings – love wasn’t supposed to feel like that. So I decided to ignore that idea, go on an exchange to Ireland, run away from the things I didn’t have the courage to say no to, and forget about the city I was living in for a little bit.